Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Tar Pits

She knew it was his day to lecture at Pepperdine, and she knew at this point in the morning he was almost to Malibu. She knew he had not noticed anything wrong in his wallet before she left.  He would have called. She knew the secret code to access his account spelled the word MAZDA. She knew how much she could withdrawal at one time. She knew it was enough.

All her knowledge of the lover she was standing in line to betray had thickened into tar the instant she found out she was pregnant. He was too old for her.  He was too sloppy, too helpless, too kind for her. He was hopelessly attached to be being a Film Studies professor. He was prone to random stupidity - stupidity that was usually inexplicable and damaged her somehow. He hated the neighbors even though he did not know them. His ass was extremely hairy. He'd been writing the same novel for a decade. He covered the television with a sheet when he wasn't watching it. He did not understand why she sometimes gardened at night.  And he never would. He ate too much fruit. He slept too soundly. He flushed while still peeing. He had apparently never been in a situation where he felt the need to whisper. His sense of humor was intermittent. The largeness of his hands had yet to stop startling her. He never felt shy.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

I Had A Blast.



She's asleep first. I am staring straight ahead, wondering what happened to cigarette smoking. We are in bed. We just had sex for the first time in 3 months. I am cold and warm at the same time. And awake. I want a cigarette. In bed. Next to my wife, while she sleeps. Because tonight it seems like we might still be in love. I want to take a drag and enjoy that.